have you dropped your dummy
its not ive been there done that got the t shirt paid the prices everyone else has as you move up certain things are expected of you and I am afraid you have to do the it a choice if you want to get to senior county referee and stop your choice if you want to go further its your choice (if you comply with the criteria ) you could be traveling 3 hrs to a match not 30 mins to local park match there's a difference I know its not fair but it is what it is ..........
and I don't think it will change sorry