I've had it once, and it ended up pretty badly - 6 yellows and a straight red (player who was sent off was charged with technical assault about a month after the incident and got a 42 day ban for it). Then again, it was probably because I had to get 2 trains and then do a half hour walk to just get there... My advice is to just think 'turn up and it'll all be alright'. It's the thought of doing it thats worse than the actual thing itself (usually!) My advice is to just brave it, be determined to absolutely smash it and 9/10 it'll all go to plan and your motivation will be back. If not, a 2 week break will leave you itching to get back into the middle - I'm hoping my games on tomorrow - had to go without football last week because I just happened to be in New York!